Rough day for Rossleigh!!

Well, really it's been the last 36 hours I guess that have been a little rough for my little one.  First, she had to go to the pulmonologist yesterday to get her Synagis shot (she'll have to do that once a month until April), so shot = no fun.  Then there was the nail clipping fiasco earlier today.  Still feeling bad about that, by the way...

Not too long after that, she was sitting upright in my lap and facing me, but kind of doing that head-bobbing thing that newborns do.  She does this often and in an attempt to get some good balance, she sometimes loses control and flings her head in one direction with a surprising amount of force!!  This time we butted heads...HARD.  Poor baby just cried and cried!!  :(  I know that my nose hurt afterward, so I can only imagine how she felt!

At least her daddy tried to distract her with the never-fail Christmas tree (this time it was one of the downstairs trees).  I personally think this is a pretty cute picture of both of them.  ;)

Oh, and to top it all off, on Monday, we go to the pediatrician to get her two month vaccinations.  So needless to say, after Monday, we're hoping for a pain-free week!!  LOL

I'll leave you with a video I took yesterday, I think.  She's just so funny!!  Rossleigh can be fussy, mad, hungry, upset...it really doesn't matter the emotion, but when you strip her down, she is insta-smile!!  She just loves the sensation of having no clothing!!  Uh-oh!  We may have an exhibitionist on our hands!  LOL

Have a good weekend!!

Crappy mother moment

I decided to trim Rossleigh's nails today.   Not my first time, mind you.   I've trimmed them several times and have been the only one to do so since her birth.   Today, we had our first blood shed.  

I had finished one hand and had moved to the second hand.   I had her left pointer in my hand, ready to clip.   I had the clippers in position and she suddenly jerked her hand.  Instead of clipping her nail, I took a chunk out of her finger. Like an actual chunk. It's not just a tiny nick.   I actually took a chunk of flesh out of my daughter's sweet little finger. It bled for a good couple of minutes.

Blood was shed.   Tears were shed - first by her and then by me.  The entire time, she's looking up at me crying and fueling my guilt.   Really, child?   Do you think I don't already feel horrible?  I caused my child to bleed and cry.   I already feel like the worst mother ever.   But there was no reasoning with her. She just continued to look up at me with red, teary eyes like, "how COULD you?"   *sigh*

What a day!!

I had my postpartum visit with the fabulous Dr. Bleich today.  She finally got to hold her for the first time since her birth (removing her quickly from my womb and handing her directly to the Cook's team just doesn't seem to count).  ;)

My incision passed inspection, and other than some pain I'm having at one side of the incision, I'm good as gold!!    We'll watch the pain situation and see in a couple of weeks if it's still the same.  If that's the case, we may have to try some sort of numbing injection.  Yuck - no fun!!  So prayers for no pain would be appreciated.

Apparently, my mood swings, irritability, and general feelings of inadequacy and overwhelmedness (is that a word?) are completely normal.  No PPD here!!  It just feels like I am moodier and more hormonal NOW than I was when I was pregnant.  It seems that that's normal too!  Woo hoo!  We dig normal in the Dewey household!!  :)

Today, our little sweetie was up for almost TEN hours with no nap (other than little 10-25 minute cat naps).  The day was a weird day that messed with our schedule (what schedule?) so every time she would finally drift off in the car, we'd arrive somewhere else and she'd wake up.  OR I'd finally get her to sleep at home and then the phone would ring and she'd wake up.  Each time her nap was interrupted, it made it that much harder to get her to sleep afterwards.  She got to the point where she was just almost inconsolable and had red rings around her tired, puffy little eyes.  It was such a sad, little site with her bottom lip puffed out.  Poor baby!!  :(  Her daddy and I tag-teamed her (it's exhausting when they're just crying non-stop and you're trying every little trick you know), and we finally FINALLY got her to sleep.  LOL